I DONT UNDERSTAND YOU

I hate this feeling..
Feeling that i am always be the last person to know things about you..
Who am I? Why i am always be the last one on your list to be informed about anything?
Distance is not the issue here. If you are willing.. there is no such excuses.

I am not a whinny person. I am not asking to be taking care of all the time.
I am not complaining as i told you… i try my best to understand you…
But why you keep me hanging on the line…
Why i am the one who keep sms you and reminding you that i am here and love you.
Why can’t you just show me a little bit that you care..

I am not in the position to taking care of you at the moment.
I have not much money left to keep phoning you or sms you.
I am using my last money to keep you informed so you know that i care about you.
Why is it so difficult for you to understand this.
Why i have to wait all night long for a single sms… just to make sure that you are OK and you don’t bother at all to reply?
Who is needing help? Me or you? If you seeking for help and somebody come and offer a help
at least a shoulder to cry on… why you keep this person waiting all night long ?
DO YOU THINK THAT NICE?

Harry.. harry… what else should I do..

If you want to have a woman to be treated like this… then find one!!!! That person definitely not me.

I am giving you everything.. anything to show you that i love you so SINCERE that doesn’t matter who you are, what your problems are..but it seems like you  always say.. I AM TOO GOOD FOR YOU..

Maybe you will love person who likes to kick your ass or keep hurting you more…..

I dont know… I am speechless.

~ Sally…

GOOD news from my best friend

I checked my email today and there’s one email from my best friend, AS. She informed me that her new novel has been released and wrote me the summary of this novel. Pop teenagers kind of and from the synopsis i can see that the story is interesting as usual. This is her 5th novel  in this genre if i am not mistaken since  she also wrote different kinds of books and i am not fully aware what are they cos she is only updating me about this one. 

Well… good job my friend, i wish all the best for you and i hope the coming year will be the fruitfull and rewarding year for your writing career. I always pray and wish for your success and you know i am always here to support you. 

As we promised together 10 years back then…. “Keep fight till the end”

 

Your days will come my friend, i can promise you that.

See you there

 

- sally

You are the biggest mystery ever!!!

Now.. it seems everything changed.. I dont know you…

I cannot predict you.. 

I cannot understand your way of thinking..

You are becoming far away from me.. i can’t reach you.

It’s like a huge wall separate your world and mine..

How can we get together if the situation is like this..

and the worst thing, Harry… i dont see that you tried to reach me back.

I am drowning and you let me .. 

You even push me further down… with your act… with your ignorance…

I am very patience with you…

I give all my time and love and effort to show you that i love you…

but how can you do that to me?

Have you ever thought for a second about my feeling?

Have you tried even once to stand in my shoe?

YOU ARE CRAZY… YOU ARE MEAN

I thought loving you is so easy… i am so sincere … and i do care… but why you always challange me?

Why there still another figures shadowing our path? Why you let this ruin us?

If someone asking me have you ever met an UNGRATEFUL MAN i can responde in a second.. YES I HAVE.

 

You are wrong if you think i am that NAIVE and INNOCENT

I know you will never change.. you will always do that.. there will always someone else..

YOU NEVER FEEL ENOUGH… you are greedy.

 

~Sally (finally see the silver lining beyond the cloud)