I want to take care of you

6.27 PM

I am so happy that you called me today baby… I never understand why your voice could effected me that much. Just hearing your voice can inspire me and make my day . Thank you so much for taking good care of me.

I hope i really can see you soon. Hold you in my arms. Kiss you.. Taking good care of you like i did when you are in Indo. Massage you everyday before you go to sleep… massage your feet when we back home  from long walking cos your feet is easily get hurt and sore… or make you a cup of coffee in the morning… prepare nice breakfast for you.. tickling you when you are angry.. and accompany you when you want to smoke after meal or sit beside you not talking… just sit in silence and watch you … guessing what is running in your head…

I miss you.. really missing you.  My wonderful Harry… i love you so much.

 

~ Sally

 

WHAT A DAY :-)

Woahhh… what a day…

Since 10 AM this morning i had a meeting with pak Ery, the director of the construction company which my office hired to do the renovation work. AS usual.. he came late… almost 30 minutes and definitely waste everybody’s time. The meeting was mainly discussed about the delay of the work.. and how to solve the problem since this effected other renovation work also.

My office contracted 3 different companies to do the renovation. Each of them has their own specialization, One is focused on the civil work like make new walls, break the existing walls, raise the floor and other works required while the other company specializing in workstation. My office want to change all furnitures including filing cabinets and other fixtures so all existing furniture will be moved out and be disposed (or maybe donated to government) and the last company is specializing with the carpet and wall papers.
My Work to supervise and monitoring the progress is really challenging and people are demanding (esp from high level management) to see this work done a.s.a.p because the main time line has been changed totally. This work should be finished by the end of May (teoritically) but until now the progress is only 50 %. We hope at the end of June all civil work is done and the workstation can be installed on time as well as the carpet. Approximately around October the new office can be materialize. So it means.. i will not seeing the result of my work hehehe…cos i am leaving on August.
back to the meeting…. it was over around 12.15 and when i got back to my desk, i got tons of emailssss at my inbox. SO i answered them one by one and also make phone calls to follow up urgent issues raised the meeting. And since i will have another meeting at 14.00 … I decided not to have lunch…

The second meeting was so tiring. Everybody spoke… asked… answered.. discussed.. debate.. and it was over at 16.15 phuahhh… the meeting mainly discussed about the new regulation from government (Ministry of Finance) that requested all transaction or transfer of money from abroad to fund projects in Indon must be controlled by the ministry which is technically very difficult to implement and against the regulation of The UniNat itself.

So …I was back at my desk and then start to catch up things with.. and see my LIST of THINGS TO DO.. pile up to 29 points. Oh Goddd…. please help me… I am only a human being. not a robot. How can i manage myself if i was busy with the meeting… and meeting… and meeting. Plus i have to make the report or minutes of the meetings i attended.

and then the most tiring news come up… that my salary maybe… maybe ... will not get on time because there’s a budget error in the system.. which sometimes means that the money is depleted and it takes time until the headquarters transfer the money…hiks hiks hiks…
But then my friend B**I offered me something nice.. she said i can borrow her money to keep me alive until i received my salary.

Well.. the day is not that bad.. Thanks God… You always so kind to me… behind every closed door you open so many windows for me.. I love you

Wow….the time is now 7.38 PM i dont realize time fly so fast… I gotta go home.

Babay…

~Sally

Someone’s Watching Over Me

 

I Found myself today and ran away but then something pulled me back.. it’s the voice of reason I forgot I had. All I know is you’re not here to say what you always used to say but it’s written clearly in the sky tonight

 

So I won’t give up and I won’t break down. Sooner than it seems life turns around and I will be strong even if it all goes wrong.

When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe that someone’s watching over me.

 

I seen that ray of light and it’s shining on my destiny. It shining all the time and I won’t be afraid anymore

to follow everywhere it’s taking me. All I know is yesterday is gone and right now I belong..to this moment of my dreams

 

It doesn’t matter what people say and it doesn’t matter how long it takes .. If I Believe in myself ….I’ll fly high …

 

  

THANK YOU HARRY for always watching my back (oh come on.. i dont mean my a** )

 

 

~ Sally  (It only matters how true you are… Be true to yourself and follow your heart)

I TRY MY BEST TO FIX YOU

 

When you try your best, but you don’t succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep

Stuck in reverse

 

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can’t replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

 

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

 

And high up above or down below

When you’re too in love to let it go

But if you never try you’ll never know

Just what you’re worth

 

Tears stream down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down your face

And I……….

 

And I will try to fix you…. to make you smile again…  my beautiful angel…

 

 

~ Sally – the mechanic

 

 

a drop of water to calm my SOUL 2

Key points from the meeting :
1. Never stop to learn..keep reading….keep broading our knowledge… see… think…. learn from the life… people.. God’s creations.
2. Islam means peace… showing this to our neighbour… next… friends… caring for others
3. The time is running out and we will be the loser if we don’t use it wisely for the benefit of ourself and others

~Sally

Demonstration almost everyday

* starting last week… people from AHMADIAH group protested about the nation condemn and rejection of them… (it’s been official that the council of ULAMA stated that this group is banned in Indonesia). They went to our office twice this week to talk to the big bos about “the freedom of religion” and the right to live in Indonesia”
* 0.5 km from my office is the demonstration point… yesterday the issue is about the election and the day before is about the “National Awakening Day”.
* At the ** fl of our building (my office is on the XXth fl) ILO office is located… so almost every other day… the labors groups (protesters) come by (sometimes peacefully.. sometimes with anger) to talk to the director about their issues.

People might think these all things are disturbing and useless but i think these are GOOD things…GOOD sign. If you suffer.. if you want changes.. you needs to speak up your mind…

~Sally (the one who is learning to speak up…)

a drop of water to calm my SOUL

My working buddy organized a meeting this evening and invited a preacher  (we called it USTADZ) to give some speech about Islam.. not to talk about sophisticated issue…only general things to remind us again about the peace.. loving spirit and caring for others. I attended the meeting just to get something to soothe my soul… gosh.. i haven’t been to this kind of event since … 4 years ago?? i feel awkward there.. but it definitely brings good feelings for me.

It’s 7.20 PM… i must go home.. I will write more about this at home.

 

~Sally

Evacuation postponed…..

God is really good to me today. The Drill was cancelled and postponed some other time next week.
The reason cos today is the anniversary of the riot happened in the city few years ago .. and groups of people might take advantage of this situation.

Work again…

I am still wondering …. where are you Harry? I am missing you so much and I cry everynight …

 

~Sally

 

GOOD MORNING

Gooda Morning…sun..sky…wind..earth.. birds… everybody… universe and esp my Harry (Selamat Pagi Sayang)

Phhhuaaaa… I was hurried up to the office this morning cos i have an important meeting for the office renovation at 9.00. I didn’t even had a chance to grab a tea or coffee or anything to fill my stomach and i would be in deep shit if i didn’t have breakfast cos last night i didn’t have my dinner and also didn’t have lunch.. only eat small snack at the afternoon.

So.. i arrived at the office at 8.40 and rushed to the Toilet.. cos my colon still has the same problem. Morning diarhea.. and after that prepare for the meeting.. and then my supervisor said that the consultant was not coming cos he has to go to the doctor and can only be available at 1 PM.

So… i am happy… cos i can blogging heheheh… and waiting for the ALARM… for evacuation drill (yes… i know already.. while everybody doesn’t know hehehe unless the security team, high level management) oo i am not the high level management… just lucky cos 2 days before i received notification letter from the building management (all letters from building management always address to me first) that today my office will have evacuation drill at 10 AM wuahahahahahah…. so happy…I know.. i know.. so since morning i already prepared myself.. wearing simple dress to the office… wear flipflop ..not my 5 cm high heels  but it could kill me (if i wore it) cos we will go out from the building trough the emergency stairs and my office is located at the 8th floor and i still have the problem with my right leg.

so… i am still waiting… and hopefully i can blogging again after the drill is over.

Have a nice day..

~Sally

 

 

00.00 – Waiting for you

I called you this evening Harry…
And mom said you are sleeping… I miss you so much… and i do really hope we can chat tonight… but i guess you can’t..
I hate myself if i am like this… missing someone so much… n makes me crazy…losing my sense… act like depressed people. can’t sleep, can’t think… can’t do anything.

Love does hurt….

~crazy Sally